Take it back.
I remember thinking before I was a follower of Jesus, “this will never affect me in the future.”
Of course, the “this” in the previous sentence could be anything from drinking to drug use to empty relationships with women to a harsh word spoken about someone. I thought I was impervious to any sort of retribution; no consequences to my choices.
I came face to face with a consequence today.
I met with a man who I had not talked to for 10 years. Literally. When I had known him previously, I never spoke a harsh word directly to him, but I certainly did behind his back. I also joined in with others in making fun of his awkward appearance and social miscues. We all had a laugh at his expense and no one thought twice about it.
Until me. Until today.
You see, I had to meet with him to discuss plans for an event I’m helping plan. I arrived at our meeting and was greeted by a warm and friendly smile, a handshake, and a genuine interest in how I had been doing.
I never felt more awful.
If nothing else, it made me realize just how powerful our everyday actions can be. The choices we choose to make extend way beyond the temporary situation in which we make them and the consequences follow us - good or bad.
I left the meeting completely humbled and with a resolve, by the grace of God, to see the Image Bearer in all people - no matter who they are. I came home and told Kerry, “I’m a fraud.” I was half-joking, but it is certainly humbling when you see yourself in a light that is not-so-great… Even 10 years after the fact.
So, I guess what I’m saying is this: I’m sorry. What about you? Have you had any experiences like this? What have they taught you about yourself and others?
Peace.
JMW
